You know those days where you just want to change everything about everything? Where you want to cut off your hair and change your wardrobe and rearrange your furniture and try cooking an exquisite French meal just before you leave for 9 months of backpacking the AT? Yup, I am having one of those days. Likely brought about by the fact that this new year has brought some stress, a couple of betrayals, delayed healing, a few trials, and enough unexpectedness to have me off balance. But, isn't that the way it goes? We don't often have major catastrophes that totally destroy us and leave us scrambling over the literal or figurative rubble. Nope. Usually, there are just enough things to keep us off balance that we lose our way, have trouble righting ourselves, and stagger along trying to make it all balance somehow.
Well, that stops now. I want to make some changes, so I am going to make some changes. Obviously, I will not be leaving tomorrow for the AT (thought I wish I was) nor will I be preparing some complicated French dish (if you follow me on IG you know I am struggling with dagblasted hardboiled eggs at present). Instead, I will take a look at my calendar, rearrange my goal board, budget a few "fun days", and direct my attention to getting my balance.
I will open my heart to more people, even though there are far more times that end in heartbreak than I would like. I will set my sights on something I deem improbable but I will refuse to label it impossible (don't you worry, I have something in mind but I am keeping it to my inner circle at present). I will challenge myself to grow in ways I once thought impossible. I will embrace the uniquties of me and make them badges of honor rather than burdens or shame (as I have often been made to think they were).
Keep an eye out, friends. If you give me a little bit of time, you may see something amazing happen. You aren't going to want to miss this.
I am Christian Straightedge Christ follower, an Army Brat, an ex-milso, founder and CEO of FitnessAnyaMind, a sofa CEO, a nomad, a fur baby mom, and a mindset builder. I enjoy nature, reading, music, cooking, and taking care of those whom I love.